Broken, Beat and Scarred

Broken, Beat and Scarred is the thirty-second chapter of Season 1 and the thirty-second chapter of the Lorecraft series. It started on May 19, 2018 and finished on January 20, 2019.

Plot
Sara leaves Darklaw's office and heads straight for the infirmary. She asks if Jocelyn is awake, which she isn't. Sara patiently waits until Jocelyn wakes up. When she does, Sara asks Jocelyn if she is feeling better. Jocelyn responds by saying she still feels terrible, and that she'll remain in the infirmary for a few more days. She does however forgive Sara. Jocelyn's condition then seems to worsen a little, worrying Sara.

Sara then decides to explain why she is so insistent on helping Natalie. In a flashback, Sara explains she never had friends as a young child, always being bullied, even moving to a new town to get away from it. In this new town, and subsequently new school, she'd deliberately distance herself from everyone else, seeing it as the only way to ensure not getting bullied. When she saw a group of her classmates talk to one another and then come over to her, she didn't respond and turned away instead, still keen on avoiding any and all bullying. This person however, didn't give up on trying to befriend Sara. Sara started questioning why they were so persistent, and decided to accept the offer of friendship in hopes of discovering. This new friend and her other friends would consistently include Sara in everything they did, believing that it was not fun if not everyone was involved. This made Sara realize what having friends was like, what being happy was like. Some time later, she'd be attending another new school, the last one before coming to Lorecraft Academy. Here, things took a turn for the worse and the bullying returned. However, Sara now had the fond memories of friends and happiness. Sara refused to let things turn sour again, even activating her Resonance for the very first time just to stand up for herself. The bullying stopped, but only towards her. The bullies directed their attention to Sara's friends instead. From this, Sara developed a belief that being friends is more than just being nice to people. That you also need to help them wherever they may need it. The flashback with Sara stating there's no worse feeling for her than not helping when she could have.

Jocelyn, having carefully listened to Sara's story, asks Sara to come close to her and gives her a hug. Sara apologizes for her recklessness, saying she tried to help Natalie so much that she forgot about Jocelyn. Jocelyn forgives Sara again, and while she remains unsure of whether she can forgive Sara, she is just glad Sara is safe. Sara stresses that she'll always see Jocelyn as a friend, no matter what. Jocelyn reveals she did what she did because she didn't want to lose another person close to her and apologizes for hurting Sara. Sara simply states she never hurt her in the first place. They close out their conversation and Sara leaves Jocelyn so she can get some rest and recover, Sara confident that she'll be back to normal in a few days. Jocelyn not so much, simply praying to herself and hoping.

After a few days pass, Jocelyn has recovered from her injuries and is walking through the school halls when Sportman approaches her to tell her that Darklaw is asking Jocelyn to go see her in her office. When she gets there, she is let in by Darklaw upon knocking on the door. Jocelyn enters but is somewhat nervous, which Darklaw notices. Jocelyn starts by apologizing for her actions, aiming to defend the others and bring them back while warning school staff but failing to succeed in this. Darklaw first points out warning staff immediately was the better course of action. Jocelyn explains she is aware of her mistakes but did so to help others. Darklaw notes this as a noble trait, but states Jocleyn's actions have spoken louder than her words. Jocelyn then says how the thought of her fellow students dying and how both she and Natalie would respond to it has probed her head many times. Darklaw reassures Jocelyn that they are all safe now, citing the well-being of the students to be a responsibility of hers as the school's headmaster, and tries to clarify to view her as an ally in any and all matters. Jocelyn does not pay attention to this, and Darklaw has to call for her attention. She then issues Jocelyn the same punishment as Carol, Amelia and Sara, one week of detention. Jocelyn requests to not be put in the same room as them for this. Jocelyn then questions Darklaw about the scene at the Sacred Sanctum. Darklaw states they have little information on the situation but that school staff will be investigating the matter. Jocelyn then expresses her displeasure with Lewis' voluntary inaction. Darklaw states this is a matter between the two of them and suggests not to do anything that forces Darklaw to get involved. Jocelyn promises to go to Darklaw immediately if something this concerning occurs again, and leaves the office in a hurry. Outside, she sheds a couple tears before wiping them off, and continues on pretending to be completely fine.

Cast

 * DoubleDubbel – Sara, Sportman, Darklaw
 * Mistrala – Jocelyn

Trivia

 * The 1-on-1 scene between Jocelyn and Darklaw was redone on January 20, 2019. The original run of this chapter ended on May 20, 2019. This chapter was also originally named Lamentation.